Valentine's Day will Never be the Same

Valentine's Day for me had never been a day for lover's until recently. As I have shared with you previously, I was not always a pleasant woman on Valentine's Day. There was a time when I was a very bitter woman and even more so on Valentine's Day.

Throughout my entire life, I never had anyone on Valentine's Day. It was just another day to me. I had nothing to look forward to so the day often came and passed without much notice. In college, I had one too many bad experiences that either started or ended on Valentine's Day to make me bitter for quite a long time. Anyone I met on Valentine's Day was lucky if we became friends after he got past the bitter, sarcastic, and angry woman I portrayed myself to be.

Who would have thought that in 2001 sitting in front me at dinner on Valentine's Day would be the man I would eventually marry? Not me. Not him. Not anyone. I was so bitter that night we first met that when I met him again a week later it took me a few days to even realize it was the same person I had met on Valentine's Day. I did not want to give him a chance. I did not want him to be the one. I fought it but it was hard.

Our friendship grew in just a short time. We became close friends. It was that friendship that we developed that allowed us to take to the next step very easily. Our friendship is the one thing that we never changed. Even when we were not dating we still were very close friends. That bond of friendship could never be broken.

Kris remained my friend through everything. He was there for me in some of my lowest moments. He even picked up me up off the ground a time or two. He helped me to dust off the dirt and get back up on my feet. He was there to celebrate with me in my greatest achievements. Sometimes I felt like he was the only one who gave me that pat on the back that I needed.

What did he expect in return? Nothing. Just having me there so he could call me friend was enough. He did not expect any pay backs. I tried hard to be just as supportive to him as he had been to me but it did not come so easily for me. Yet sometimes it was enough just to call me friend.

I am such a lucky woman to not only have an amazing husband but my very best friend beside me. He is there for me through thick and thin. He still is the one who holds me up when I feel the ground to shake beneath me. He still is the one who helps me up when I fall down. He dusts off the dirt and gets me back on my feet. He is the one I cling to in the rough times. Long before he was my husband, he was my friend and to this day I can say that he still is. He is the very best friend I have ever had.

So this Valentine's Day will be our first Valentine's Day as husband and wife. This day and every Valentine's Day will never be the same. Valentine's Day will always be the day that I met the man who changed my life. The man who changed me for the better. The man who encouraged me to be more than I ever thought I could be. The man who believed that I could be more than I ever even wanted to be. The man who loved me like no one else ever could love me.

Valentine's Day will always be the day for me and my love to remember the day that we never thought would be. It is not the day I fell in love with him but the day I first laid eyes on him and my life has not been the same since.